reverb 10: healing

Prompt: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?

very little has healed me this year.
because i have let very little in.

there have been drips. i shared with an old friend – i don’t even know what to nickname her – we’ll go with the princess (old joke) – the story of how an acquaintance, a potential friend, hurt me quite a lot by shutting me out. she listened, and she got it, and the act of letting her see was – moving. it sounds small – it is small – but it meant something.

i’ve had a whole series of friday nights with the actress that are awesome in a lot of ways. that make me think i can do this trusting thing again. that free me from daily bullshit and make me happy to share my time. they make me feel light.

i’ve had girls nights somewhere else (another one i don’t know how to name…) – that have made me feel normal again. like maybe this is how people do things, and maybe i’m ok.

still though – on the whole, i have not come far on a healing path. it’s been extremely recent that i even absorbed what i needed to and figured out why it’s still here.

next year i want to trust. i want to allow myself to be fully in love, to love without question. i want to know what everyone’s talking about when they say they have these rock solid friendships, that they trust their friends with anything.

you don’t know how badly i want it.

One thought on “reverb 10: healing

  1. >I never make time to comment – but please keep this up. The work you're writing about AND the writing itself is really inspiring…. I miiiight just do one or two of these and see if I can manage to get into the swing of it…

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