we put all of our worth into our strength. we fell apart.
so we told ourselves that we were strong, we were steel, and this was our comfort while flames raged, this was a secret peace we never wanted to admit. there was no jailer, gaoler, there were no bars. so how dare you condescend to me when, with the weight of your own years, so many more than mine, you haven’t found the maze out of this place, you don’t have any answers.
it is never easy. you are dealt your lot and you do what you can. sometimes you get it all wrong, and then you must kneel and make your confession, and it’s never pretty. absolution isn’t free.
today, some five six ten years later, i’m only grateful to know that i have worth beyond the trials i can withstand.